Hello.

To write this blog, i am inspired by Gregory David Roberts (currently reading), but mostly by the sweet one, who is a writer. He is taking a place in my life that is unprecedented although always (secretly, sometimes shamefully, often skeptically) hoped for. I am in love with him, and I could never say that about anyone before.

It's new, and it's bizarre to me that the first taste you get of me will be me, in love. For twenty-four years I have not been in love, and now that I am, I feel like one of those people. Those people you can't relate to because they have another half even though (presumably) they were never half a person before, always a whole... I was never waiting for that; I felt complete on my own and would respect only the same. I feel like I must be a double person now.

I think that for too long i've been in the habit of thinking too much and not writing enough. Normally i'm good enough at figuring things out and fixing them (sometimes in the reverse order), but lately it's just going around and around in there and maybe i am just chasing my tail.

At the very least I hope to get the exercise that comes of verbalizing my thoughts. Discipline, expression, and better understanding through those. Here's hoping.

So, hello.